Basically all of my life I have had this love/hate relationship with wanting kids. Some days I want to have my own one day and others I just think no way. I don't like kids and I wouldn't be able to deal with them. But here lately I've been doing alot of thinking and I've decided that I want to have seven children. I just feel in my heart that I'm supposed to have seven children.
But there is one thing that can hold me back.I probably have PCOS. For people who don't know what that is it is polycystic ovarion syndrome. The doctors thought I had it when I was in middle school and I went for an ultrasound but basically they couldn't really tell anything by that. But they did do tests and found out I have a high amount of testosterone and very low insulin. Even though it didn't show I had it I am pretty sure I do because I go for months on end without periods and I'm pretty sure I am not pregnant because I am proudly waiting til marriage to do anything.
So the fact that I Do want kids and the fact that I might have PCOS and not be able to do that has me slightly down. Right now I have a sixteen year old cousin who is pregnant and I'm really bonding with her because maybe for now that is the only way I can be somewhat of a mother since right now the chances of me having kids are slim to none.
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What a tough thing to face. I hope you find physicians and health care providers who can equip you with information and options that will bring you peace. And don't forget..there can be other paths to motherhood, through adoption and fostering.
So glad you came by my place--it's always good to 'see' you! Glad you enjoyed our TP antics!!!
Blessings!
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