Giving into the world

So this post is in response to Octamom's post where she asked if there was ever a time in which we stood against the current or if we went with the flow of what was going on around us.

Well basically I've always gave in and went with the flow..much like a follower. I have never once stood up for what I thought was right. Always giving into what my friends do whether it be wrong and doing what I know is wrong. For instance I have even done stuff I know is so wrong that I'm surprised I can face myself.

The two times I regret ever going with the current and following what my friends and even I'm gonna say the enemy thought was right. Because both of the things weren't godly or good. They were temptations that Satan sent and I gave into them sadly.

The first thing I gave into and didn't stand my ground on was Witchcraft. Yes I did try to practice that once...I'm not even sure how it all started. I saw a book for it in the bookstore at the mall and I felt compelled to buy it. Even though I think a part of me knew it was wrong I did so anyway and soon my life was basically this depressing life. I was holed away in my room reading books and searching the internet for more information on it. I would say this went on for a year or two and I would always turn down offers to go to church from friends and even from my own mom. I know now that it was wrong and I should have listened to my mom when she said not to buy it..but one of my friends at the time was into it and too be cool in her eyes I gave in.

The second thing I gave into was Lesbianism. I had friends who were lesbians and also the Lesbian/Gay/Transgender stuff is all over the media now days and again I thought it was cool and gave into something I knew was wrong. I told people it was because I had been burnt by men too many times. But with tons of praying now that I am over that phase I realize I did it so I could fit in with my friends and look cool and sort of in a way different. While I was calling myself a lesbian I even had "girlfriend". She was over the internet because she lives all the way in New Zealand. I hate to say this but I regret dating her and even becoming friends with her. I'm doing all I can now to get her out of my life but she seems to never wanna leave.

Now that I have done those two things I know what real regret is. I regret those and all I can do is pray that I never fall in those traps again. I believe I can stay strong against those traps now because I know in me that they aren't right and they make me feel less closer to God. They also make me feel like I have lost a part of me because I was always taught they were wrong as a child in church.